I don't really make resolutions. I don't ever stick to them, so they're really just like suggestions and they don't happen at the beginning of every year, they kind of happen when I think about them.
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| I thought this was funny, this is why I don't do resolutions!! Image: http://lolzombie.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/01/updated-new-years-resolutions.jpg |
Like, a few months back, I realized that when Maddie was a baby, I just couldn't wait for her to grow. I loved watching her development that I was so focused on the next thing she was doing that I didn't mind how quickly the baby stages went.
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| Maddie about 5 days old! |
Now that Maddie (will be) 5 (tomorrow!!) I find myself sad that she's growing so fast and especially sad that Isabella is too. I don't love all things baby - I never have. But I do love how Isabella snuggles up to me and I am the one person who can soothe her when all others can not.
I love that Madison thinks I am pretty much the coolest thing there is. I said to her the other day, "Promise you'll always love my hugs and smothering kisses" of course she said "I will, I love snuggling and hugging you!" But I couldn't help but think - one day she'll be like 15 and think that I'm not cool anymore. That made me so sad.
I don't think I ever went through an "I hate my parents stage" but I certainly remember thinking, "They don't get it - they don't know what's 'in' and what's 'cool' or not"... I had enough stacked up against me with my peers, I just wanted to wear the trendy clothes and do the cool things...
I hope I can find the right balance of that for my girls. There's conforming and fitting in, and there's individuality and expression. I'd like them to know the difference and feel comfortable with themselves despite what their peers are doing. I hope I can instill that in them and still be "cool" while doing so. I think I had decent examples so I hope I can pull it off!!
Anyways, back to my
While thanking God for him in my life, I often pray that I can be the wife that Ryan deserves in return. It's not a natural thing for me. I don't always remember to kiss him when I walk through the door - I often talk about my day before I remember to ask him about his, I don't think to do nice things for him randomly... so I work hard at it. I'm trying to make it more natural.
Another suggestion for myself is to not obsess over my weight or my eating as much. Madison notices these things now and I do NOT want to pass on my weight issues to her. Right now, she loves her body, loves her hair and the way she looks and she knows she is smart and beautiful. I want to keep it that way. I want her to value her brains AND her looks (lets be honest, I'd love to say that her brains are all that matters, but society will show her otherwise, so as long as I teach her the correct order, I think I'm doing ok!)
I am pretty happy with my body right now. My stomach needs toning but to be fair, I had a child 7 months ago and haven't really worked at losing the weight. I'll get there. And I need to have patience with the process.
So that's my goal for this year. Sure I have other things I'd like to do: read more, spend more time with extended family and friends, blog way more often, pay off my credit card debt, remodel the bathroom and replace the kitchen floor... but those may or may not happen - I don't want to feel like crap for not fulfilling some resolution.
I also have made it my life goal to appreciate my blessings. And I really think I do that well. I know how blessed I am and I am so thankful to God for that!
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