No tears

So this morning Maddie did not cry when I left for work. This sometimes happens, but I really thought she would cry today. Usually my MIL is our Nanny for Maddie while I'm at work. However the MIL is on vacation this week, so my parents are driving the hour and a half to come each day and watch Maddie. She's not as comfortable with them as she is with the MIL so I was ready for a tough break this morning. However, she was in a great mood and showing the rents all around the house!!

I'm so blessed that my parents are retired and can do this for us. It helps us so much. I would have had to take the whole week off if they didn't do this. They even postponed their trip for this. They have a motorhome and are going all over the country next week (was originally going to start this week) for a month or so. But when I called them a month ago and told them that we could really use their help, my dad was quick to say, "well, we'll just leave a week later!"
What a great birthday gift.

Speaking of... I'm turning 30 on Sunday. I've been avoiding even talking about it so far. It just doesn't seem possible. I think it would help if my husband wasn't 2 years younger than me... but that just makes me feel old!! 30 used to seem so old!
I know in my heart that it's how you look and feel that counts not the number... but thirty! ugggh!! 30!!
I also don't look my best lately. Hormones made me lose a lot of my hair, which is still really thin and brittle. My complexion isn't great and I still have about 5.5 lbs to lose to get back to pre-pregnancy weight... so all of that added up with being thirty... and it's a tough bridge to cross.

But on the bright side, I have many friends that are thirty and single, no stable career in place and no children. I am blessed to say I have the greatest husband that ever lived, a pretty adorable baby and my career path is exactly where I want it to be. So, I guess all things considered, I am doing ok for 30!

On that note, back to work!